Wednesday, April 13, 2011

eh, I've got nothing for a title.

Sure, I like to be happy. Everyone loves to be happy. Nothing better than being surprised.  Who can beat the feeling of relief? Or excited...ness? These are all great. But actually I would also put, up there in my top rankings of moods, melancholy. It may even be in my top two, after happy.

Now if we thesaurus the word melancholy (I feel like i'm giving a talk) we read, (even more so) its synonyms are: sorrowful, forlorn, depressed, miserable, gloomy, woeful etc.
Sooooo yeah, apparently I enjoy being depressed? Either my definition of that word is a little twisted, or the previous statement is true. There are few things I like more than listening to sad classical or movie music, (ie J. Williams, Schindlers List, Little Women, Beauty and the Beast, and my latest, Toy Story 3) and sitting on my bed, perhaps reading a book, or just thinking. Thinking about things that make me cry. I love a good cry. I love sitting alone in my room, when its raining, and just thinking. I love watching movies that just make me sad.  So pretty much, i'm just keen on being sad. At least I think I am, because I keep doing these things. There is nothing that makes me feel more timid and meek. (heck, I should have been a lamb.)  It makes me realize that I need to rely on other things/people, besides myself. Being in such a mood makes me want to get over myself.  Makes me realize that my life, in comparison to most others, really isn't that bad. I've recently decided i'm the slightest bit dramatic. I also think another mood example in conjunction with this, and possibly the root of at least some of these feelings, is nostalgia. A word I didn't know existed until this year, what a blessed expansion of vocabulary.  Nostalgia meaning: remembrance, recollection, homesickness etc. I just like listening/watching/thinking about things that take me back...sad or happy. I think all these sad/reflective feelings are semi healthy in doses....perhaps?



Well, I guess in conclusion, basically i'm just a depressed little eleven year old watching Parent Trap on repeat. BUT don't fret, remember this is second liked. My preferred mood is happy.
Woo! Hurray! Fun! Laugh! Ha!

2 comments:

Brooke Shoko said...

happy, melancholy, and nostalgic. all great words. thank you.

Ashlyn Isabella said...

You're right, you should have been a lamb.

I'm pretty sure that's my all time favorite line in any blog.